I fall today, just with the door into the house: To
time I hate myself and my body extreme. (Surprise)
It is currently so bad that I look into the mirror, completely avoiding or strictly only see without glasses (which is non really make sense is because, without glasses, I do not see nothing) and I wash myself up to date only, instead of Showering, for when I get in the shower, I can see myself in the mirror. Thanks without glasses is not completely sharp, but I see my outlines are soaping and I have to feel forced and even 'see' it in practice with his hands. Ok, by washing with no mirror, I feel too, but it is easier for to me, non-see from the angle of the eye, must I treat there.
This entry is for some perhaps surprising or even shocking, therefore, as I press any non-essential to the eye that I find visually so very not good.
Why? Well, it's what every non-essential to take it and some times non-serious, because, as they say, me too "are as pretty as I am" and that I do need to change nothing.
I had a man who loves me and that would be worth something - this is also, of course! But why should I be satisfied with me, 'only' because I have a wonderful man who comes loose with each kilogram of ready for me? Because He likes it, it will get better? Sorry, but that the works (for me) does not, it's never.
Let me eat your mind .. I know, it'll taste great!
perfection was always something I aspired to, even as a young person I always wanted to be better and better than others. Eccentric and unrealistic, I know. This so-called non-perfection exists, and yet again, for there is indeed for me a standard that is called 'Perfect' hold.
grades are not perfect perfection is perfect for me: I do not like women and small breasts 90-60-90 (yes, buhuuu, I'm so mean the flat-chested compared to -.-). Other hand, I love curves and big breasts (but non-giant melons! Nature is always provided for me), but the Curvy women defined at each other for even ...
It is common in talk shows, treating the subject of "fat?" I call that sexual Inertia! " and I can sit and watch as honestly never for long. Why?
The lean (and then there are the really well-trained dancers go-go used) are always represented by fat-haters - what I find absolutely marginal.
Not everyone has to like it when a "Fetti" sits next to you. And if the grade ne short distance traveled by and starts to sweat, so good, then He may also stinks (body functions ahoy!), AAAAB God ... what then must hate them? Neither that person's inside the body, nor has this grade with many pounds to fight. So keep your stupid but sometimes, intolerant mouth!
Unfortunately, I have to mention that there are indeed enough salad racists who think every thin woman for non-Curvaceous and thus find it so disgusting totaaaaal, since they only have to tailor their pants even more. Evil, thin world.
No, no, it is but no one helped, good people!
I admit it, I hate all the thin, beautiful women I can see over his days on TV and I will totally jealous while angry is bad for myself I am, because I think that I'm too little on my diet and that today I would still go out and get some exercise could fill up ... had, would have had. Yesterday I went when I came home from a buddy on the stepper. Granted, I think it is never longer than 5-10 minutes on the thing because I do then your knees hurt, but soon I felt good.
And there lies buried the dog: So many to blame others for their misfortune, his malaise, or otherwise.
Why does the stupid Alyssa Milano from so great and has sent the figure also tits? What is the one? And I sit Here, unmotivated and fat and have me look at their perfection, while I will destroy a Pizza Hawaii.
Do you know that?
I know it well and yes, I also find it extremely stupid and suboptimal. (That you must now accept unausdiskutiert thing, because it runs on non-xD)
Staying still in the talk shows with the above subject.
addition to the thin (almost dry) gives go-go dancers, it's always at least 2 superb women purely burst suddenly in her Lieblingsnegligeé and express their cellulitis of the 'skinny bitch' into the beautiful face powdered.
[This ominous connective tissue can befall anyone, even the thin, the centuries has been perceived by salad and mineral water with a dash of lemon (because tingles so nicely!) feed. Author's Note]
Well, of course, this balancing Brumme defended the blazing glory of their colleagues out there mentioned and, gasping, as she feels sexy and how many men would know to appreciate it.
I will not say now that the even will not do, because I was always thicker than others and never had a problem with male acquaintances.
There's not just about being thin or fat, but also about how they are in people. Since I do not think any band on the nose, as I shit myself, many think to start "Holla (Hello Darling \u0026lt;3!) has great charisma but ne! (
So, uh, where I wanted to continue ... Ah yes, the 'Sexy in Size 34' Group is there not be so nice as I do. The thought of never (I repeat NEVER!) That a man with size 50 or up (Sorry, but all of which is for me non-fat really [For my size calculated from 1.75 m]!) Feel comfortable, or even - as is the only person on something? - Can find sexy or erotic.
And at this high-quality discussions, I can never look long.
because neither side ever convincing arguments and the well ... is yes, what makes ne talk show, right? Pointless back and forth and back and forth ... And the audience is sitting there, drooling away one (whether because of the thin or the thickness ;-)) and are at best still a
So what I want to reach forward with this entry, or, I know myself really not be so. But I feel better now and I see it iwie also nothing around quite so tight that I (still) am not satisfied with myself, I had a few successes so far already, so it is still endure setbacks and just 'move on'.
I will then ask my stepper (and me) you can torment and that alone. Comments and qualified discussions are allowed, 3
forget the my belated Christmas present, 3 
